Failure Is Not An Option

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Man in the Arena

"It is not the critic who counts, nor the man who points out how the strong man stumbled or where the doer of deeds could have done them better.
The credit belongs to the man who is actually in the arena; whose face is marred by dust, sweat and blood; who strives valiantly; who errs and comes short again and again; who knows the great enthusiasms, the great devotions, and spends himself in a worthy cause; who, at the best, knows in the end the triumph of high achievement, and who, at worst, if he fails, at least fails while daring greatly, so that his place shall ever be with those cold and timid souls who know neither victory nor defeat".
· Theodore Roosevelt

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October 2010
We decided to terminate our Drip Irrigation Project...
Reason - Campesino goals were not met...
Taking farm matters into our own hands...
We build our first free range area for our Pig Project...
We decided to convert our cow barn into a pig barn...



November 8.2010...
We buy our first three hybrid pigs from local argi university UNA...
We bought two females - one male...
To begin our pig farm...


November 24.2010
We made our first pig concentrate with our farm grown Yellow Corn...
A complete success...


January 4.2011
We relocated our first 208 liter Drip Irrigation water tank to our free range area...
Tank used for pig drinking water...


January 4.2011...
We add a fourth male non hybrid pig...
To fatten for sale...


January 8.2011
We relocated our 1928 liter water tank to our pig free range area...
Tank was used in our Drip Irrigation Project...
We used original tank support structure...
Water tank is used for drinking water...
And to fill our pig mud pit...


April 16.2011
We sell the first male non hybrid pig we fattened...
300 lbs...
A complete success...

May 2011
Six months after buying our first pigs...
With zero pig farm progress made with new partners...
My beautiful wife - my one of kind Honduran partner and myself...
Once again took farm matters into our hands...
It was difficult for me to face my family - and my Honduran partner...
It was very difficult for me to accept it seemed we were heading to another dead end...
I took full responsibility for our setback...
I apologized to my group...
Yet I refused to fall to my knees...
Many years of living on Honduran jungle river banks...
Had taught me...
Failure is not an option...
I asked my family and Honduran partner...
That I would not fail them...
To hold the line - one more time...
I said I would make right, or rectify my errors...
My family and Honduran partner agreed to assist me - again...
I truly thank the Great Spirit...
For surrounding me with such special people...
I truly thank the Great Spirit...
For showing me the path that will set me free...


May 19.2011
I put the battery back in my Toyota 4x4...
Felt good to be back behind the wheel of the Commando...


May 19.2011
We buy fifteen non hybrid piglets from local pig farmer Don Juan...


May 19.2011
Don Juan with his wife and boy...


May 19.2011
We put our piglets in our unused irrigation building No. 2...
My children(L)...
And my Honduran partner Dennis with his boy Dennis(R) - stepchild Manuel(in red stripes) and Gustavo - a family member of Dennis´ wife...


May 24.2011
Began rehab work...
To convert our cow barn into a pig barn...
This is what we wanted to do in November 2010...
We lost six months...


May 26.2011
We began cutting wood we had leftover from our Center of Operations construction...
To use as fencing for our pig pens...


June 4.2011
My beautiful Honduran wife(L)and I buy six more non hybrid piglets from Doña Carmen(R)and her pig farmer daughter Stephany...
My wife has eleven non hybrid piglets...


June 8.2011
This will give you an idea of the size of pig pen for our mother pigs...
We will have 12 pig pens´...
We will use this covered area on a partial basis...
Each pig pen will drain into a central biodigestor...
PVC drains are of relocated 4 inch PVC pipe...
Our biodigestor will provide energy to our farm...
Our pigs will spend most of their time in the free range area...


June 9.2011

This picture is special to me...
In this picture we see many things we bought...
To support our partnership with four Honduran NGO´s...
All projects failed...
Many have chastened me for the investment in these materials...
It has been very difficult for me...
I swore I would recoup all time - labor and money spent...
There is the cow barn...
You see the blue water tanks - a black water tank...
PVC pipe - we have 1.5 inch - 2 inch - 3 inch - and four inch PVC irrigation pipe...
Concrete blocks...
Wrought iron work...
Rebar...
Plastic tarps...
Unseen are PVC fittings - water filters - hose clamps - tools - nails - nuts and bolts - fence posts´ - fence wire - wire mesh...
And much more...

Stacked wood we bought in November 2010...
To rehab our cow barn into a pig barn...

We are using all materials to build our initial pig infrastructure...
A full return will be made on our investment of these materials...


June 10.2011
Installing relocated 1.5 inch PVC water pipe...
We use our creek to fill water tanks...
Our diesel water pumps we used for Drip Irrigation...
Will be used to pump water...
With sales of pigs...
A full return will be made on water pumps investment...


June 11.2011
Finished installation of our black 2500 liter water tank...
We used the same tank support structure...
This tank was relocated from our Drip Irrigation Project area...
In the background you can see the other Drip Irrigation blue water tanks...
That were relocated to present location...
In this picture you see we are installing 1.5 inch relocated PVC pipe...
You can see irrigation building No. 2 to the right...


June 14.2011

June 13.2011...
One of our prize pigs...
Gave birth to 13 piglets...
12 survive the night...
A perfect dozen...


June 17.2011
Our other mother pig in forefront...
Gives birth to 11 piglets...
A complete success...


June 24.2011
We have built pig pens´ in our free range area...
To seperate our mother pigs from the male...
All pigs are given equal time to roam the free range area...


June 24.2011
Another angle of pig pens´ in free range area...
You can see our pigs that were in irrigation building No. 2


June 28.2011
Yellow Corn crop

The raised beds we made for a white corn project that did not happen...
Are now being used to plant Yellow Corn...
We will use the corn to make our pig concentrate...
A full return will be made on our raised bed investment...


June 28.2011
Cuarentano Frijol Bean crop...


My Children Are Learning Life On A Farm


June 10.2011
Our children painting new wood for our water tank support structure...


June 11.2011
Tomas assisting in placing relocated 1.5 inch PVC water pipe...


June 14.2011
My sons´Diego - five years old and Tomas - ten years old - filling water container...


June 14.2011
Diego painting water filter post at 2500 liter water tank...


June 14.2011
Tomas - Diego - and Manuel digging hole for fence post...


June 18.2011
My son Diego digging drainage ditch with hoe...
Tomas and Enadina in background...


June 18.2011
Tomas and Manuel playing in water ditch after heavy rains...


June 18.2011
Diego has no fear of the pigs...


June 18.2011
My daughter Angelica - thirteen years old - watching our pigs...


June 18.2011
My daughter likes to draw what she sees...

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The Butterfly

Mankind can confuse your vision...
Mother Nature sends her messengers...
To tell you all is good...
To stay the course...

On June 20.2011...
At our farm...
In front of my boys and my Honduran partner Dennis...
Mother Nature sent a messenger...


June 20.2011
My Honduran partner tells me a Butterfly is on my belt...
I reach down...
The Butterfly walks onto my hand...
I show my son Diego...


June 20.2011
My son Tomas takes this picture...


June 20.2011
I passed Butterfly to my son Diego...


June 20.2011
Diego passed Buttterfly to my son Tomas...
Then suddenly...
Our beautiful Butterfly flew away...
Amazing experince with my boys...
Thank you Great Spirit...

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January 30.2011

At our village Farmers Market...
We will sell our pig meat...
As well as our farm grains...
And more...
Our test run at our Farmers Market has been a complete success...

What is interesting to me...
On December 26.2005...
At another Blog I had - Modblog
I posted how I would become a Pig King in Catacamas, Olancho, Honduras...
When I returned to Honduras in June 2006...
My family persuaded me to invest in cows...
Out of resentment I planted Jatropha...
Then switched to cows...
From there...
I tried several agri projects...
All did not reach expectations...

Now I back with the pig project I wanted to do in 2005...


Lessons Learned

Love myself...
Take 100% responsibility and work on myself...
Find out from within myself - why people oppose my humanitarian work...
What's going on in me that's causing our projects to fail?...
I must make right, or rectify my errors...
Allow the process of transmutation - by using Ho'oponopono or related processes...
I must unite three parts — which exist in every molecule of reality...
The Unihipili (child/subconscious)...
The Uhane (mother/conscious)...
The Aumakua (father/superconscious).
When this "inner family" is in alignment...
I will be in rhythm with the Divinity...
With this balance, my life will begin to flow...
Our projects will no longer fail...


June 18.2011
Me with my son Diego at farm...

I must be a good father for my children...
My greatest teachers...
Have been my beautiful wife...
My three children...
And my incredible Honduran partner Dennis...

For those who have visited our farm...
You have taught me much as well...
Gracias...

Thank you Dad for teaching me that whatever I do...
I must do it with all my heart...
I love you Dad...

Thank you Mom...
For teaching me to follow my dreams...
I wish you were here Mom...
I miss you...
I love you Mom...

Thank you Great Spirit...

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Review Of Last Seventeen Months

January 12.2010
· IDE - Honduran Campesino Drip Irrigation Project


January 20.2010
· The Honduran Campesino Dream Begins


January 27.2010
· Answer To Imposed Honduran Poverty - Action


May 5.2010
· We Are Selling Our First Vegetables


June 15.2010
· We Need Buyers For Our Honduran Produce


Friday November 12.2010
A decision has been made together with our Honduran Campesino associates...
All IDE International drip irrigation equipment has been removed from our farm...
We are looking at irrigation systems developed in Nicaragua...


November 12.2010
· Family First


November 14.2010
We have initiated our Pig Project...
· Family Farm Project


December 24.2010
· Aldea Sosa Roadside Farmers Market


January 19.2011
· We Continue To Plant Frijol Beans


January 26.2011
· We Continue To Sell Our Farm Products


February 2.2011
· Frijol 40 Rosado - Frijol Cuarentano Rosado


March 24.2011
· My 24 Year Old Dream For Honduras - Swadeshi


June 28.2011
Pig project update...
· Failure Is Not An Option


August 29.2011
· Corn Warriors

September 4.2011
· Pig Warriors

· Gold is a Good Investment in a Corrupt Matrix, But Self-Sufficiency is Real Wealth